In my painting I create an idealistic landscape that reflects on a psychological condition that deals not only with utopian ideals but also morbidity. In the mind there is a constant shift between tension and relaxation, which weaves its intimate narratives and a sense of ambiguity into the work. Using a phenomenological and simple process I depict deeply private and intimate spaces, with a sense of compassion.
 
Influenced by the writings of Simone Weil (called by Susan Sontag "one of the most … troubling witnesses to the modern travail of the spirit", (McRobie, 2021)) my work is grounded upon a melancholy rumination originating from the moment of my mother’s death. This event gave rise to both my melancholy and an impulse for escape from the inevitable fact of death.
 
My works are based on photos and memories. The mediums I use, especially acrylic, ink and watercolour, are chosen to build up multiple transparent layers with fluid brushstrokes. Having absorbed the expressive, disturbing potential of Eduard Munch's work, I use vibrant, even lurid, colours and with these I construct illusionistic and dream-like worlds. The locations are often in an outdoor setting, such as the seaside, a ski resort or a park. I employ a direct, intuitive process to use these settings to create psychologically probing paintings.
 
Another significant factor in the aftermath of a period of depression is the moment of huge consolation: ‘catharsis.’ This moment comes close to freeing you from anxiety or despair. In my work I attempt to express the feeling of it. It’s a meditative practice.
Although the figures in my paintings are presented as vulnerable, I also try to show the resilience of the human mind that is a symbol of power and beauty.

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Reference 

McRobie, H: One hundred years after her birth, Weil remains an enigma – both comic and shocking in her seriousness of purpose. [online] Available at: <https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/belief/2009/feb/03/religion-simone-weil?CMP=Share_AndroidApp_Other